My Beloved Monster and Me

Oh what a wretched creature I am.
I try to be something better but
my wretchedness follows my every footstep.
There's a monster in my depths that screams
for its power. I can't control it, how it
burns to be released so it can revenge
this world for its goods.

Holding on to what's so dear and dreaming
of the fear. This battle of two sides
cannot be won. Some days we forget why
we are even fighting. It is like time has
stopped and we are on the edge of a cliff
falling. And we look at each other and we
quickly create a human chain and save ourselves
before the fall.

My beloved monster and Me, we love and hate
each other. And yet we cannot seem to survive
without the other. My Monster understands me
like none other, and is always happy to listen
to whatever I may tell it. Always eager to tell
me the lies that I will see as truth in my deluded
mind.

Soon we are fighting again, with swords we battle
to the edge of eternity for the rights to my soul.
This Monster and Me we know the truth about me.
You said you'd come and save me, you said you'd save
me from this Monster that's so much like me.
And yet here I've fought alone for all these years.


Now your here, your telling me its over, your saying
that I must leave and you will destroy my beloved
monster. I look at my monster with tears in my eyes.
And I tell you, please forgive it, please be merciful.
Because in another life...this would have been me.
I turn my back and I leave, I hear my Monster whimper
in fear and then a painful cry. The silence fills
the void in between.

I stand on cliff, the cliff we had fought so many long
years on. I bring my sword to my eyes and I cast it
over the edge and darkness. A shadow appears in the
dust below, my monster still watches me I'll never be
rid of her. Oh forgive this wretched soul of mine for
I always said...that I'd be fine.